Incase you haven't noticed it's been a while since we've meet. Alot has happened over the past months and I see that a few of my entries have been deleted for one reason or another. It's whatever. I'm not homeless... I couldn't do it. I'm too fussy, too picky, and too materialistic for that. I couldn't part with all of my clothes so instead I got a job. Heh. I am officially a receptionist at MAP Communications. Thanks to my incredible typing speed, winning personality, and my medicore spelling I snagged myself a tedious job answering phones. Riveting, I know. Basically I sit, I answer the phone, I take the message, I say "Have a nice day" and sound like I mean it, and then I twirl around and around in my chair. I do this about 300-400 times a day. Sounds monotonous doesn't it? It is, but sometimes, to shake things up, I'll twirl the other way in my chair. Yeah... I know how to party.
Being spoiled, I've only had one other job before this. I worked for a wonderful company called WEST. (Now when I used the wonderful in that sentence I mean wonderful like the deepest dankest pit in New Jersey, not wonderful like posies and/or unicorns.) Again I would answer the phone (see the trend?) and repeat what I saw on the monitor ahead. Ever see those psychics conning late night TV show watchers into "picking up that phone and dialing the simple 800 number for a free reading"? Little do they know that it wasn't a psychic on the other end of the 800 number, it was me and 40 other people who would then try to sell you a 900 number. Oh the joy. I worked part part time so I had little money. Now I work full time and although the pay is crap in the end the money is good. Really really really good. It's been a long time since I could just walk into any store and walk out with shopping bags that runith over.

Anyway, I'm going to go now. It's my day off and I'd like to spend some quite time by myself. I do hope you can understand. I'll try to come around more often. No promises though... My promises are much like the universe around us. Vast, unending, and for the most part empty. We both know me too well by now.

~Ams "You know I rather like this God fellow. Very theatrical you know. Pestilence here, a plague there. Omnipotence... Gotta get me some of that."

Mood:   I feel like cutting off your hand.

Happy Halloween to all and to all many sleepless nights!

It's my favorite time of year! The weather is cool, the air is brisk, and if all goes right the leaves will fall from their happy homes. YAY! Leaf raking! I love Halloween. It's the only time it's ok to scare the little kiddies until they pee. I'm not even handing out candy this year. I'm just gonna scare the living hell out of the passer-bys. 

I know it's been along time since my last entry, over a month. The Sims2 has been consuming my time. I'm making my own clothes now. It's so stupidly addicting, and I can't for the life of me figure out what's so addicting about it. It makes me want to rip my hair out.

I've been thinking of my future and I'm seriously considering dropping all my crap off in storage and becoming homeless for a while. No, no, not like bag lady-soup kitchen homeless. It'll be more like I just don't have a place of residence. I'll just kinda crash where ever I can. Upon taking an overview of my life I've decided I don't really like the person I am. I wish it were more simple like a distorted self image. It's so much easier to change what's outside than what's within. Too bad there's no kind of plastic surgery available for your personality. I think that maybe losing everything material will help me sort through what's important and what's not. What do you think? I need to change and I'm willing to go homeless and stuffless to do so and remember it's not permanent.